Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I’m not around, when I’m much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I’d stayed
Cause I’m lonely and I’m tired, I’m missing you again oh no
Once again

Avenged Sevenfold – Dear God

Pagi ini, dibangunin Hepo GSM bego`ku yang baru2 ini aq isi pulsa gara Hepo CDMA layarnya ngeblank.

“Fath, km dimana?”
“Ini siapa?” Tanyaku malas2an tanpa baca caller ID
“Ini Om, km dimana? bisa pulang sekarang? abis ini Om langsung kerumahmu, tar kita berangkat bareng. Cepetan!”
Aq diem sejenak… antara masih ngantuk dan setengah sadar..
“Ayahmu gak ada, ayo kesana, ntar jam 8 dimakamin”
What the?!? Seketika aq langsung sadar total dan rasa kantukku menghilang.
“Innalillahi wa innalillahi roji`un… Iy aq pulang sekarang.”
Belum satu menit aq masukin Hepo ke saku, dia udah bunyi lagi, “Mom`s Phone calling”

“Halo”
“Nak, km dah ditelpon Om-mu?”
“Udah, ini lagi ngeluarin motor”
“Ati2 dijalan, gag usah ngebut”
“Iy”

I never thought about this before, I mean, I knew that he’ll leave the world sooner or later because of his illness, but I never thought that he left us so soon. Dalam perjalanan kerumah ayah, aq ngeblank total, gag ngerti musti ngapain dan harus ngapain dan entah kenapa, air mataku mengalir. Anjrit, kenapa aq nangis …?!? Stop it, I don’t want to look weak in front of him… not in his cemetary. If he had to go then I dont want to be his burden.

There’s someone I actually wished to talked to right now. Barusan dia telpon, but I couldn’t say anything. I said I miss her. I wished she said the same thing, but I know its impossible…

Actually, I got a lot to write.. entahlah, tiba2 aja ngeblank.. maybe later.

Semoga amal-amalmu diterima dan semoga semua kekhilafanmu diampuni Allah S.W.T.

Dad, have a nice sleep. Rest in peace, Dad.

Under influence of : Ada Band – Terbaik Bagimu; Alison Krauss – Restless; HOPE – The Rain dont last; Avenged Sevenfold – Dear God ; Jack Johnson – hope.

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