Posts Tagged ‘diam’
Dear my love, who are you ?
dear my love,
I’ve been here for as long as I can remember
I regain consciousness from my very dream
but, my love
who are you ?
the alter personalities of mine
one whom took my freedom away
I shall hate you
and love you at the same time
but again, my love
who are you ?
a shade behind the moon is haunting me
crying beneath its heart
evaporating under the stars
and still, my love
I don’t know you
the smile and the tears
which one is the honesty,
which one is the modesty
and, my love
which one is for me ?
I remember the way you look at me
I remember the way you speak to me
I remember the way we laugh together
but, my love
I can’t remember why you’re here with me
And I still can’t remember who are you …
rather .. actually .. I guess .. I never really know who you are..
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Fly me to the moon
Hum, what a nice and calm rain in the morning. I thought its a dry season already. Well not that bad, at least I’m sitting here on my office, staring those code at the monitor, seems like everything twists one with another. LoL.
The blue turquoise
I saw her sleeping
for the very first and maybe the last time
her calmness shatter my heart
and torture my feeling..
The Insomnity
Sleepless Mind,
Empty Heart
The Falling Moonshine pt.1
Dalam diamnya, terlelap tinggalkan isak
dibalik tangis dan rasa sakit
diantara kerinduan dan rasa lelahUntuk dia yang disana,
tertidurlah dalam damaimu
sisakan rengkuhmu diantara kami yang disini
tersenyumlah
hingga nanti kami tiba disana..
Kemarin pagi, tepatnya hari Kamis, 14 Agustus 2008, setelah adzan subuh, Ibuku menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya. Di kamar rawat inap kandungan RS DR. Sutomo Surabaya.
Yes, I think I love You
The smile on your face let’s me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at allRonan Keating – When you say nothing at all
Okay, if you’re in a broken heart state, nor in a state in which you will be irritating with others happiness and lovey dovey story, please stay away for a moment, or you’ll hurt yourself, thanks.
White night
Okay, this time it will looks like just my usual yet another melancholic posting, but trust me, Its not. At least I don’t feel too gloomy or melancholic or something. Thus, its a short entry just to satisfy my desire of writing.. ^^
So, where should I start. I was visiting an old friend’s houses.
Actually, she’s my bestfriend’s girlfriend. And, she’s my ex-girlfriend’s bestfriend. For some reason, whenever I met her, I always got some kind of uneasy feeling on my mind. Maybe its because my ex told me that for some reason that not actually my fault, she has no more respect towards me. Well, its not that I care too much. If I care, then I’d spoil everything to clear my name right away. But somehow, I’m kind of let it all the way it is now.
And so its about her again? No.. and yes. But no.. umh, but on some way, yes.
Lately, I think a lot about her, but on a different way. I mean, more calm and solemn. I’m not as depressed as before (no, not that I was depressed but, well.. If you read my whole blog, I guess you’ll understand).
Guess its all thanks to someone who always blame me everytime I wrote melancholic posts. And thanks to Id-Anime that somehow I found my second home (even thought its so quite there lately, maybe because of those plurk thingie).
Under influence of : my overwhelming job, my mom’s health, my “whole” friends, and her… just simply… happy ^^
Banana Dance vs Lost in hospital
So, what is banana dance? adalah salah satu emoticon bergambar pisang yang sedang menari dengan riangnya. Emoticon ini merupakan salah satu emoticon yang bisa ditemui pas kita lagi Plurking. What? you don’t know what is plurk? thats so BAMBANG! ..erh.. I mean.. BASBANG! BASi BANGet!
Dan ya, Plurking menjadi kegiatan pelepas stres dan kegiatan buang-buang waktu yang cukup menyenangkan. Percaya ato enggak, jumlah spam dan junk di milis ID-Anime mengalami penurunan semenjak banyak yang mengenal plurk. Jadi bisa dibilang, a new and save way to spam your friend’s daily life on a single timeline journal *fiuh* … R000xx d00d!!! (quote dari om blek).
Hum.. kemaren Ibu terpaksa diopname, abisnya dah seminggu usaha menaikkan Hb dari mulai metode medis sampe alternatif belum ada hasil yang signifikan, kasihan klo penyinarannya harus tertunda selama ini T.T, jadi seharian kemaren bolak balik RS-PMI buat ngecek persediaan darah secara kata dokter harus di transfusi, sementara sejak pagi kehabisan stok golongan darah “O“. I hope she’ll be fine.
Sepulang dari RS, mampir ke warnetnya temen sebentar, trus pulang, mandi dan bersih-bersih, setelah itu baru balik ke net, DotA bentar, trus bubu’ nyenyak dan baru saja terbangun.
Pelajaran yang bisa diambil dari hari kemaren adalah, ‘Malas bertanya sesat dijalan‘ dan ‘Rumah sakit itu ternyata besar‘. Bisa ditebak, saya tersesat didalem RS Dr. Soetomo sewaktu mau ke PMI sekitar jam 5 sore, secara banyak gerbang yang udah ditutup, jadinya nyari jalan alternatif, meskipun akhirnya menemukan pintu keluar yang lumayan jauh dari tempat saya parkir (parkir di IRD, keluar dari gerbang didepan Gedung Fakultas Kedokteran UNAIR). Siyal™. I hates hospital even more now. Tidak, saya tidak membenci keberadaan RS karena keberadaannya sangat membantu mereka yang memiliki keluhan kesehatan, termasuk keluarga saya saat ini, its just.. ahh.. nevermind.
Capek, jengkel sama semua orang! Pengin refreshing >.<
Under influence of: Avenged Sevenfold – Dear God; D’cinnamons – I.M.U.L; L’ Arc En Ciel – Winter fall; Mandy Moore – Only Hope; My Chemical Romance – I’m Not Okay; Saras Dewi – Lembayung Bali; Halley Bennett & Hugh Grant – Way Back Into Love; Lily Allen – I Could Say; Pink – Family Portrait; Fort Minor – where`d you go.
Bluey Clouds
Yup, seperti biasa, pagi buta seperti ini memang waktu paling nyaman buat blogging. Sepi, tenang, dan bisa berfikir lebih jernih. Seharian kemaren (pagi ampe sore doang tapi) berkunjung kerumah “nya” (yeah, she’s the one). I was so quiet, even thought I’m not supposed to be. Mungkin gara-gara dia bakalan pindah ke Bandung (ya ya ya its not that far, still the same island on the same nation and the same planet. And I know it has nothing to do with me, but somehow, ah.. nevermind). Ok, enough is enough lah, no need to over think about it. The fact that I love her is enough for me to felt that way.
Sejak beberapa waktu yang lalu sibuk menggelayuti paman Google buat nyari-nyari info soal SEO, secara pengin nyoba adsense, dan merintis Pay-Per-Review blog (atas rayuan seorang teman, kakak, dan guru). Sepertinya lumayan buat nambah uang saku secara emang sekarang sangat-sangat membutuhkan income tambahan (ya saya tahu gak bisa secepat itu, at least kalo dirintis lebih cepat khan lebih baik, its just a matter of now or later).
Rencananya sih mo nyari sambilan laen lagi, tapi keknya untuk beberapa hari (ato minggu) ke depan tetep kek gini dulu aja, sambil menata ulang fragment-fragment yang bertebaran. Whoaa, gak ngerasa ternyata PR ku sudah menumpuk, mulai dari Insomnity, forum alumni, beberapa PC client. Hum.. I have to do my best! Ganbatte..!!
Under influence of : Regina Spektor – The Call; Letto – Memiliki Kehilangan; Afgan – Sadis; The Cranberries – Ode to my family; Hugh Grant – Way back into love; Coldplay – Yellow; Mew – Comforting Sound; Colbie Caillat – The little things
Empty Glasses pt.2
There once a song, about the moon.
A very solemn song, that I recall to forget.
Today, when I look upon the sky, its brighter than I’ve ever known before.
The warmth that I’ve longing for, the peace..Trying to grasp through every night..
Trying to hold every momentum..
Trying to forget every glitch of tears..
