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Dear my love, who are you ?
dear my love,
I’ve been here for as long as I can remember
I regain consciousness from my very dream
but, my love
who are you ?
the alter personalities of mine
one whom took my freedom away
I shall hate you
and love you at the same time
but again, my love
who are you ?
a shade behind the moon is haunting me
crying beneath its heart
evaporating under the stars
and still, my love
I don’t know you
the smile and the tears
which one is the honesty,
which one is the modesty
and, my love
which one is for me ?
I remember the way you look at me
I remember the way you speak to me
I remember the way we laugh together
but, my love
I can’t remember why you’re here with me
And I still can’t remember who are you …
rather .. actually .. I guess .. I never really know who you are..
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Aura Kasih Diss!!!
Fist of all, for all those Aura Kasih fans out there, you’d better not continue reading this because this post might hurt your *cough* feeling.
Sweet Catastrophe
I lost on my own world
a world full of fake smile
a place where I cry
for the sake of your laugh
A world where you barely see me
but on a blurriness
a place which no one but you
is important
an ironic fact
whilst I’m completely ignored
I skiped the beat
I followed the melody
and drank the emotion
The last drop was the last petals
of hesitation, and courage
a determination of losing something
might as well means winning something
So, what am I doing here?
in a place where there’s nothing but you ?
in a world of my creation
but without a single trace of me inside…
Sometimes I wonder
am I too patient, or am I just too stupid
Well, either way, I wouldn’t mind
I won’t lose …. I can’t lose ….
not after this far …
this is my declaration of war
I will shout it out loud, ..
until my lungs dry of blood ..
This is my declaration of fight
in which I have two option ..
winning the battle and losing the war
or losing the battle and winning the war
either way, it’ll be a painful real smile ..
even on this world of fake smile
on the world of my creation..
I can still feel the smile, and the pain of loving you ..
ps: sorry, I should’ve realized who am I to you …
Aku dan mimpi
Aku ingin tertidur.. lagi..
dalam tenang dan hening
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Please don’t stop the rain
Another rain…
9:13 In the morning
You left your kiss on my forehead
Three days ago
And I can still feel your lips
Announcement . . .
For some reason, yeah some *very hard to explain* reason, and some ‘problem‘ that actually depressed me, I will be extremely busy for the next few weeks, or maybe more, I don’t know. My Yahoo Messenger will still be online sometimes, so buzz me up anytime I am needed, if you find me offline than tell me when will you be online again and I will try to online at the same time too.
Hmhh… I hope I can back active on the dot net activity soon.
Regards,
Shin nFath a.k.a. Apronouva
Burned Flower
Pagi ini, aku terbangun oleh sebuah tatapan tajam
Sebuah tatap penuh harap, sebuah tatap penuh tanda tanya
Dari sekelumit text di layar HP ku
Tersadar dari mimpi yang membuatku tertidur
Sesosok kegalauan perlahan duduk diujung tempat tidurku
Dan aku masih belum beranjak darinya
Symphony of The Djondoz
Theres a place on every human heart, where deep inside they could not resist something called love. And beyond all those feelings, theres always a place for stuff like desperate and broken heart. And lately, I’ve been on such a feelings.
Symphony of The Djondoz, a lists of some songs that I’ve heard a lot on my lifetime, I liked those song, and a few lyrics from most of them. Djondoz is one of the not-so-famous-words in javanese which to express someone on its very bad situation and totally depressed.
This post, is a melody that bringing back all those memories from the very broken heart and desperate feelings, dedicated to those I ever loved and ever loved me.
And shall the symphonies begin…
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Empty Bottle
You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can’t reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it’s only pieces
Nothing left but pieces ….
Nothing left but pieces …. of you“You – Ten 2 Five”
Ah, 4 A.M. in the morning, cold air, as cold as my heart be, … may be, who knows?. Seonggok spidol hitam masih duduk termenung disela daun telinga kananku, sementara beberapa lembar kertas putih kosong menampakkan raut harapnya didepanku, ditemani beberapa lembar lagi yang sudah tergores coretan demi coretan sketsa. Satu botol kosong yang tadinya berisi air mineral itupun masih terdiam, entah dia sedih atau senang karena tetes terakhirnya sudah kurenggut beberapa menit yang lalu. Sementara aku sendiri, masih larut dalam lantunan lagu yang beberapa hari terakhir tak hentinya mengalun perlahan dikepalaku yang penuh dengan teori teori dan teori yang memuakkan. Teori tentang hidup, teori tentang cinta, teori tentang masa depan yang sebenarnya hanyalah wujud lain dari mimpi dan harapan. Mimpi dan harapan yang mungkin akan tetap jadi mimpi dan harapan, karena yang dilakukan hanya bermimpi dan berharap. Nothing more.
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Back to So-Called-Fitri
Alhamdulillah… nda terasa bulan Ramadhan sudah terlewadkan. Memang saia akui postingan ini super duper sangad telad sekali.. tapi ini adalah a must !!! wajib !!! demi untuk menyempurnakan Puasa saia selama bulan Ramadhan, meskipun kesempurnaan puasa itu sendiri sebenarnya hanya dinilai oleh Dzat Yang Menguasai Alam Semesta, Allah S.W.T….
Ugh, to the point lah…
nFath mengucapkan Minal Aidzien Wal Faidzien, Mohon maaf lahir batin.
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