Silverlight

In a blink of an eye
its just … gone

I searched everywhere
on every clouds I see
on each rainbows that connect the sky and the earth
the glimpse feeling that lost

and still
that silverlight is long gone
along with the rain

Smother Me pt. 1

Yup yup, this is gonna be a freakin’ semi-melancholic post. Why ? obvious isn’t it, its kinda a recap from the whole long journey from Surabaya to the evil city of Jakarta.

Okay, hum, how do I start ?

Seventh Sun

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now, …
Go on and take a bow …

Rihanna – take a bow

Dear my love, who are you ?

dear my love,
I’ve been here for as long as I can remember
I regain consciousness from my very dream
but, my love
who are you ?

the alter personalities of mine
one whom took my freedom away
I shall hate you
and love you at the same time
but again, my love
who are you ?

a shade behind the moon is haunting me
crying beneath its heart
evaporating under the stars
and still, my love
I don’t know you

the smile and the tears
which one is the honesty,
which one is the modesty
and, my love
which one is for me ?

I remember the way you look at me
I remember the way you speak to me
I remember the way we laugh together
but, my love
I can’t remember why you’re here with me
And I still can’t remember who are you …
rather .. actually .. I guess .. I never really know who you are..

The Lacrymosa

A symphony that comes out of blue hazel eyes. An eternal petals that flows side by side with the wind. An empty heart which filled with enormous happiness and sadness. Within the hesitation over troubled mind.

The locked up box

I ended up writing for my blog again. No particular topic, just simply another melancholic posting. Actually, its rather just simply letting out the whole burden for a while now, cause I’ve been wondering on which to whom I should share this.

Fly me to the moon

Hum, what a nice and calm rain in the morning. I thought its a dry season already. Well not that bad, at least I’m sitting here on my office, staring those code at the monitor, seems like everything twists one with another. LoL.

The night shadow

Hum, okay, I understand that my other alter ego has grown much stronger each time passed. Thanks to those gloomy and melancholic thought, twisted relationship, and complete defeat, the perfect situation to get a broken heart shattered into pieces of junk.

I really want to be free, as free as I used to be. Don’t wanna be bothered about all those blurry abstract thing anymore. Two years of stagnancy is enough to get me to nowhere but clinging to my past. The delicate thought of being sarcasmic will leads me to nowhere but hatred.

Well, sometimes life is hard, only those strong enough can gain something up from that, make a way forward and not forgetting about the past. Clearly hard thing to do, especially when you cling to your past too much.

Losing something will always give you something in return, might not be better in some terms, but absolutely means more on other terms. Just need to find it, smile, and embrace the future.

Whats this again? aren’t this post supposed to be an un-melancholic one? whats the difference with your old one? wheres the evil deed that talks to me with its passion when about to start this blog?

No, I’m trying to lecture myself. Trying to find what it means to be here. Trying to get the essence of Shin Arakish Valinsky, my old self before I turned myself into shitty Illyasviel. No, Illyasviel is a great one. He taught me almost every pain I could have. So I know how precious happiness could be. And I guess I pass the exam.

You tried your best, its enough already.

Yes, I know. Sometimes the results might not what I always wanted, but clearly, thats enough.

So, want me to take you somewhere? I’ve promised you to take you out before, to go somewhere over the rainbow, a place where there’s only you and me.

Yeah, I still remember it, it was on another post in this blog.

Now I offer you once more, will you come?

Of course I will. Sorry to keep you waiting for so long. It’s been a year ain’t it?

Yup. No problem, we’re one afterall.

Yeah. Lets get going then.

Aura Kasih Diss!!!

Fist of all, for all those Aura Kasih fans out there, you’d better not continue reading this because this post might hurt your *cough* feeling.

I threw it away

I threw it away? hm.. kenapa judulnya seperti itu? no particular reason.. more like because when I wrote the title, I was listening for a song entitled Unromantic by Drew. So, basically, this just a random rambling. (berniat reorganize postingan tapi blum sempet.. )